ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Monday, January 19
The Rainy day edition...19/1/04
Weather: Rainy in the evening
You know i think that my "family" treats me very well. For instance, My *mum and *sis cares for me very much, you know when i need advice or when i need to be taken care of. I really am grateful for them. My *dad is concerned about me la... but i don't really talk to him nowadays. My + Kor / i put a different sign because he does not belong to the same family/ also very concern. All of them gives me really nice and meaningful stuff or presents that are quite unexpected--I realise guys always give necklaces: possible sweeping statement haha. Anyway i mean they like give me so much yet i have nothing for them in return. I am so mean. I take and i don't give. Thats so selfish. I shouldnt think for myself. How much more time to love them i will never know. Maybe it will end tomorrow maybe the day after. I should learn to love them more.
Today it rained. It has not been raining very often. I remember the week of holiday in March last year. Walking in the rain alone, sortting out all my thoughts. The first week of July. It rained the whole week. The first day was when i had to come to terms with my own feelings. It has not rained much since this year. But when it does, i am bound to think and remember. / Grey skies, the soothing pitter patter, the smell of fresh water and ... /
I still feel bad after what has happened today. Would i ever be forgiven? Would i be trusted ever again? It's my fault. I should have been more desicive and not care about the feelings of others. What i have done has not only affected myself greatly but also "the person". Its as if i lost a friend. ^He says : Not worth to have a friend like him. ^ She says : You should talk to him and clarify. ^They say : Forget about him. ^I say : --blank--. Was my say ever important in my own life? My say will invovle those that i love. Would it hurt them? Would i ever know...
^ = Not "the person"
-// Time is just a moment, forever does not last
*ceLina
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