ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
;noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Monday, April 19
I feel....19/04/04
Weather : Humid but not as bad?
Listening : My immortal / Evanescence
I'm so emotionally confused i just had to blog. I just wonder, does anyone need me in this world. I wonder if i even important at all. My parents, would their lives be the same without me? My friends? The could probably find others without me? I guess the one i used to like deeply wont even bother about my existence. I somehow exist here to play a role, to play a part. Although i maybe small in people's eyes i know i truly mean something to God. That's the only thing that's kept me alive. His love.
Miss Luah talked to us about the concepts of life, attitude and subjects. Yet, there were people who closed their ears towards such advice. I'm glad i think about the deeper meanings of life everyday and learn to reflect upon it. At least, I'm not as shallow as it seems. Chasing the glamourous and play computer games non-stop. I'm glad that i have at least a wee bit amount of discipline.
I realised that i'm really pessimistic about guys. What's ironic is that, i indulge myself in romance in fantasies, envying the heroines yet i myself seem to dislike guys in the reality world. Maybe i do have an explaination for that. But ever since i gave up hope, i just cant bring myself to trust guys in a relationship anymore. Well, they are okay as friends but not anything more than that. I wish i could face my inner fears. Should i say i'm afraid face what happens next. I'm scared, but no one knows, well maybe God knew it right from the start.
-//Open my heart
*ceLina
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