ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.

Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .

ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie

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noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)

leaveanote //

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will my dreams survive or are my hopes too high

Strange In The Making

[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]

Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops

Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::

 

 

Save me from my insecurity.

My Current Video // Fall Out Boy / Dance Dance

Music Video Codes by FreeVideoCodes.com

thoughtprocesses.

Wednesday, April 14

The wake up call...14/04/04
Weather: Humid and Sunny! >.<
Listening to : Missing / Evanescence

I was reflecting about stuff last night, and something hit me in the head. I'm not the only one who is going through all these problems, my friends are too... What if they never bothered to tell me like i never bother to tell them. What if they want someone to care for them deep inside. Why didnt it come across my mind. Then the phrase from 7 habits of highly effective teenagers came to my mind. " Seek to understand before being understood" Not the exact phrase but the meaning is there. So i thought i better write it down. Somehow, i feel self centered last night.

This morning i was running for my 2.4 My friends were all behind me while i ran without them. Not that i didnt want to wait for them but i was afraid that there would be timing and i didnt want to waste my last practice on the 2.4 run. <> kept running through my head the whole time i was jogging away. Finally when i stopped, my stomach felt some discomfort. But surprisingly, the pain stopped within 5 mins. Compared to the previous mock test, even after training continously for weeks, the pain lasted through the chem lesson. MMmmm must be something to do with the song... maybe cos i was focused on the song.

During Social studies, i was telling kathryn about my blog. Then she asked me to look at her's too. She told me how depressed she was feeling on that day that she decided to blog. She told me briefly, and i have yet to read it. Suddenly, i knew i was right. I'm not the only one who is feeling this way. I should stop pitying myself and look at the people around me, they need more concern then i do, their going through the same or even more as what i'm presently going through now too...

Dont know why i'm so philosophical today but i used to yearn for a world with no emotions at all. When i experienced the slience in my neighbourhood, i found it menacing. "Isn't it what i've always wanted", i asked myself. "What would life be like? Still...." Suddenly i heard a bunch of children laughing. Life would be meaningless without laughter, without children, without people. If life is without hardships and sadness, we will never cherish happy moments and friendships. We would never be able to grow or mature in our thoughts. This is life.

-//Isn't something missing?
*ceLina

 

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