ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
;noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Thursday, August 19
40th entry...
Weather: Yeah~! It rained!
Listening to: Only Hope/Mandy moore
Dear Shadow,
I found out eating maltesers was just the right thing to do when you're feeling unhappy, stressed, wadeva. Just finished oral. I could start banging myself in the head... ah!!! This is why i like to use a blog. You can just start typing nonsense and complain till you feel better. Haha
I don't know whats wrong with my reading today but i wasn't making any sense! The picture wasn't really wasn't good either! When i mentioned about the blood-stained tissue placed on the side table, the teacher wearing a hot pink top cocked her eyebrow and looked oddly at the picture. In my mind i went "oh, shit". The teacher next to her started to smile but asked me to continue. I think i've got it all wrong!!! I'm sooo dead. In fact I told the teacher that i never had a bad experience with the hairdresser! It's true, i can't make up a story! So i told her i didnt come across something like that. Ahhh!! Why did they have to ask something about a topic i don't know anything about! I kep concentrating on money that i forgot other things! Worst of all, the hall was freezing and it my veins along my hand turned purple! It was really freaky!
Next time remind me not to buy potato and leek soup again. I'll stick to pumpkin and potato. Anyway my dinner wasn't really dinner so... yeah. I think i just ran out of things to say. Nothing much really happened today. Thank God tomorrow is the last day of the week... but also one day before my mock exam. Papers and more papers/essays. I need time to revise not to do papers!
Maybe i shouldn't complain about school anymore. It gets pretty boring. its always the same old things. I remember how i used to think about life as i walked along the sheltered area, passing by the trees which caught my attention on the day i first spoke to kenneth. It was raining then. It amazes me that i still take notice of tiny little details on that day. Maybe because it was memorable to me then. That "bridge" or sheltered area was one of the things which inspired me to think of things that could never possibly happen. What if I were alone in this world. Things would cease to work, no source of happiness or pain? No noise, no fear, just me myself and I. Maybe i do know why i had this thought however i don't think i should say it. Then one day, I came across little children form the near by kindergarden. They were pretty much likable. Then I thought to myself. Won't life be so much more with children? Then I began to imagine. What if I found a child, yet no one had claim over him. Will I be brave enough to take him in? To me, children are symbols of innocence. They are so vulnerable to things happening around them. Although I don't like to show affection for a child, I still feel for them. Its almost unimaginable how they can make your day right just by a smile of theirs.
I haven't been talking much or rather talking effectively with my "brother" these few days. We're both too engrossed in our own lives. Well maybe its me whose too busy with mine. After the 'O' Levels, I guess i have alot of catching up to do, not to mention things to do. I can't wait to get an appointment to go see G. Sherlyn! Don't forget okay? Even if she doesn't read this I'll remind her anyway =)
-// We try our lives away, then we stumble to the graves
*ceLina
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