ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
;noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Tuesday, August 31
hard to control things like these.
Weather: Hot!
Listening to: Leave (Get Out)/ JoJo
If I Can't Have You/ Yvonne Elliman
Dear shadow,
Things have been pretty unstable with each and every passing day. My main concern is not about my studies but my friendships. Recently, things have not being smooth. Agruments or small little squabbles day by day. =( I really don't know what to do. Its affecting everything. I hope to balance it out somehow =S . Sigh... I wish some one would teach my how to handle it. On one hand I don't want to ignore others on the other I don't wish to make my best friend feel left out or irritated. =S Not only that, how am i suppose to maintain my friendship with Julia when I hardly talk to her. I feel so bad for like not talking to her so often this year partially because of my studies. =S ahh... its killing me.
[* Something personal--- Enter at own risk ]
Maybe I could tell you a joke/incident. Its about the sc/gunbound guy. Recently he's been talking to me, AGAIN i dunno why but i just continue to talk to him as a friend la. So after a few conversations, I decided to ask some stupid questions hoping he will tell me some rubbish.
Then i asked " So got girlfriend? = D "
He replied " No... waiting for you =X"
Then i went " Right..."
He said " Of course la "
So i asked " You're school got quite a lot of pretty girls" * I thought he should be able to find one easily given his character which i barely know? Other than him being nice and really frightening at the same time.
He typed " Dunno... dun care"
So I was like wondering " Why?"
Then he went " Waiting for you la =X "
It's really -_-! I mean can't he just bug off. Ever since he asked me out for a concert at SP I've never replied him. * Kor, please I know you have his email... These are my own thoughts so please don't go and disturb him. You'll only waste ur energy.* So I told him, " What if i said I liked someone else." And so he replied " Then like that lor..." Then he began to interrogate me, asking question after question like how i met him and stuff what happen and whether he knows or not. I didn't reveal anything personal. Then after the whole chat, he told me "From the start of the conversation I was just joking" Not that I got hurt or anything but it just made me think he's a loser. Sorry but i mean he could have said other things but he didn't. Only after I told him about it then he said he was joking. To me, it seemed like he told me that he was joking just so that he could escape from the embaressment? I dunno. He's the kinda person who is quite straightforward and he doesnt joke if he says he likes someone. That I know because he used to talk about his ex alot! Well anyway this is some personal stuff and please don't go and make fun of me or something cos I'm gonna wrangle ur neck if you do.
Anyway, about something else. I have to do something about it too. I can't keep going on like this forever. I must find a way to knock my head so hard so that I'll stop thinking. Silly me =S
-// God will find a way
*ceLina
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