ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
;noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Tuesday, August 24
Ruined.
Weather: Rather cloudy, didn't rain though =(
Listening to: Happy ending/Avril lavigne
Dear Shadow,
Everything was pretty okay today. Except for the fact that Noddy had to spoil the whole day. During ORCA or the reading period, instead of reading their books, Reshpal had to go and fool around and disturb Noddy. Reshpal never learns his lessons. That is the cause of his downfall. He is unable to see the cosequences of his actions. After some rough play with Noddy, i dunno what the *heaven happened but they started throwing pebbles at each other. It was not long before a big fight broke out. Can you believe it? Noddy actually slapped Reshpal, leaving Reshpal to retaliate by punching him hard in the back. After lessons ended, they even went to the toilet to thrash things out. I'm sorry but I have to say but they are really immature and they DESERVE it because both are equally irritating.
One thing that I'm not happy about is Noddy's freaking attitude. I don't know what's his problem. He fails to look at his own mistakes. I wonder how he can live with such a huge thorn in his eye. He judges others but not himself. Backstabs people and friends. On top of that, he swears! He used God's name to make me believe he is innocent. He broke my trust. To think that i was that naive to believe him. I really want to help him so badly. I remember trying to advise him even when yong hao tried to deny him. He never did take our friendship seriously. He would abandon his friends for "cool" guys in the class, who despise him right to the core! I am really angry at his behaviour. Why must he time and time again hurt the people around him and the ones that i love. He takes situations into his own hands and use unscruplous methods to deal with others. This incident is almost like a brick being thrown onto my head. Once the trust is broken, it will never mend.
For a start, I have been wondering why I prefered wrting in a blog than in a diary. Well, first and foremost, I would say that writing to a blog is like writing to a friend you can confide in. At least, it seems like I'm really talking to someone, unlike diaries where you keep writing and writing, going round in circles and stuff. It just gives me a feeling that no one will understand. To me, a diary seems more like a will and where you write your last words. A blog is like a two in one kinda thing where its as if your talking to a friend and writing in a diary at the same time, therefore the mood is more light hearted i suppose, more informal?
Today, out of no reason, I decided to post Chi Seng some questions. I guess i really needed a guy's opinion to actually like understand. I've been feeling pretty confused, maybe uncomfortable? I'm not sure what's wrong with me but something is definately wrong. Kathryn tells me one thing, Chi seng tells me another while my Kor says i should go with my own instincts. I think i should go with my Kor's opinion. I can't assume because the facts are not right in my face neither can I dimiss the issue because nothing like this has ever happened before. I guess I'll just have to wait and see? Something to that effect. =S
Something to lighten this entry. You know while i was at my locker, some idiotic sec 2 accidentally kicked me from behind. I was squatting though. But i believe that the guy should have OPENED his eyes before kicking me! He said sorry but i thought it was still quite unreasonable because he just walked away and said it casually. I felt so insulted i dunno why. So i was telling kathryn about it while walking up the stairs. All of a sudden, this indian boy talked to us and began to scold her OUT OF NO REASON.
He asked her " Why you scold me? Scold me still dare turn your head behind, don't face me?"
Both of us looked cluelessly at each other. We didn't know this guy at all, except for the fact he asked to borrow one dollar from me.
Kathryn told him " When did I scold you?"
"Yesterday!" he replied
Thank God we reached our classroom. She ran ahead of me to avoid that guy while I followed behind. Am i hallucinating or is it true that there are more and more mentally unstable kids in my school? God bless them. Okay this may not be funny but interesting fact for the day =) Anyway, I have to go now! Tata~!
-//Tell me if I should turn left or right?
*ceLina
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