ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
;noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Saturday, September 4
Red nose.
Weather: Sunny, slightly cloudy
Was- Listening to: My last breath/Evanescence
Dear Shadow,
Had an absolutely fabulous time with Kathryn and Jie Bin at the tennis court yesterday. After the exams, we straight away went down to Keppel club to play tennis! This is the first time I'm attempting this sport. I had a hard time learning how to surf and hit because I was too used to hitting the ball like a badminton racket! Kinda hard to like stop using the wrist. I had a one to one game with the wall and it was pretty interesting because I had to move faster than usual. By the end of the game, my whole face was red. It still is now even though it was yesterday! Shouldn't have spent so much time in the sun. Oh well... it was fun and worth it =)
After the game had ended, I headed to Kathryn's place. This time it was Cinderella Story. Okay... it wasn't that bimbo-ish I expected it to be. Unrealistic it may seem but its still a fairy tale la i guess. I'm wondering why do the most popular guys have to be in football or be a captain of some sport. Kathryn told me but I still think that its pretty superficial still. Why can't they make a story out of an ordinary person's life? Is it cos they don't want to face the reality of life. Or they aren't interested in the lives of others. I feel that we can learn so much more if we had to see life from the perspective of ordinary people. I'm not saying that teenage shows do not possess some kind of moral which you can learn from. Its just too.... little. Moreover, some of them influences the more conservertive kids in asian to behave in a unruly manner americans do. Then we began to chat about problems about famil, friends, self, studies, not forgetting our views on relationships. We do that all the time but don't get sick of each other. Maybe she is but I don't. I guess after she's off, I won't be able to do that as frequently as possible. Can't imagine life without her =(
I'm really afraid to become superficial and blinded by the material world. Already we are all driven by the education system to do well academically. What if I start to forget or ignore all that is happening around me. Would I still be considered a human. In every second, some one can be dying of AIDS while life is being born into this world. Even if we would cease to exist for one day, the trees will continue to die because of the long term effects of pollution and deforestation. Why are we still striving for a piece of paper that will be useless when the world is dying and the earth is barren and lifeless. Wealth is a contributing factor to happiness but without it people still can be happy. Money isn't equal to happiness directly. That I can understand because no matter how much my parents buy stuff for me to make up for the loss of time to nuture parent-child relationship, money/material gains do not convey the message of love, care and concern. When will we finally learn? I know that we want to remain ignorant and pretend that the world never changes but it does! It's sad to know how we carry on with our selfish lives for our own enjoyment and activites.
[Daily Rantings- /Skip]
Mr Mavolio actually had the guts to talk to and and ask me why I didn't want to talk to him! * What did i do to make you not talk to me?* He had the cheek to ask questions like that.
"I spoilt your image what. Thats why the wizard doesn't like you." Tell me which guy has the audicity to insult his friend and expect to be forgiven other than him! And to think the friend is a girl. I will remember it for life man... He definately chose the wrong person to offend. Not that I'm going to do anything about it though.
Kathryn told me what Auguestine- I think its spelt this way, said. I found it pretty amusing. I wonder what will be his reaction if he found out about Mavolio. You know, I really disliked guys... seriously I'm not lying, by the way i said dislikED. Sometimes it just hits you like that whether you like it or not. Doesn't matter if you are ready, it will still come your way when u least expected it to, I suppose. I can imagine myself drving a car to some destination I don't know where. Then I'll see two roads without any sign boards. My heart would have told me to choose the one on the right while my brain points to the one on my left. I'll end up going to the right only to find myself crashing into a cliff of some sort. If I'm lucky, I'll end up with a few scratches. If not, I would be bleeding and the old wounds would reopen together with some new ones. Sometimes, the calling is too strong and no matter how much you try resisting going to the right lane, you always end up there! Well I suppose that's about it...I'll leave the lyrics to a song that I can relate to
The trouble with love/Kelly clarkson
Love can be a many splendid things
Can't deny the joy it brings
A dozen roses, diamond rings
Dreams for sale and fairy tales
It'll make you hear a symphony
And you just want the world to see
But like a drug that makes you blind
It'll fool ya every time
[Chorus]
The trouble with love is
It can tear you up inside
Make your heart believe a lie
It's stronger than your pride
The trouble with love is
It doesn't care how fast you fall
And you can't refuse the call
See you've got no say at all
Now I was once a fool it's true
I played the game by all the rules
But now my world's a deeper blue
I'm sadder but I'm wiser too
I swore I'd never love again
I swore my heart would never mend
Said love wasn't worth the pain
But then I hear it call my name
Every time I turn around
I think I've got it all figured out
My heart keep callin'
And I keep on fallin'
Over and over again
The sad story always ends the same
Me standin' in the pourin' rain
It seems no matter what I do
It tears my heart in two
*ceLina
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