ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
;noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Wednesday, November 10
Unstable
Weather: Cloudy
Listening to: My immortal (piano version)/ Amy lee
Dear shadow,
I'm really really afraid to see what Cherie has written. I'm so discouraged about my stupid A math. I'm so scared that my teacher will start scolding me and demoralising me about my A math. I don't even know what I'm doing. Am I going crazy or something? Believe it or not I'm asking myself if I should go to IMH to tell them I'm insane. Maybe I'm too stressed. I pressurize myself too much unknowningly. I hate it... I'm tormenting myself again. Am I crazy? I don't know how I am really feeling right now. I really don't know. I just wanted to post a song I wrote ( Lyrics and tune) without any instrument. Yes... maybe after looking at that, you might think I'm going crazy. I know everyone is watching me, waiting for me to fail. I always fail anyway no matter how much I try. Why can't I prove them wrong, why can't I do something to make them go away. I want to do things without the help of my parents. I want to do it alone. They look down on me, even though they don't see it. They do! I can tell from their eyes. I'm just cheap entertainment to my relatives. I can bet with you. They just laugh at me, make use of me and leave me alone to die. They demoralise me, they.... forget it... It's all written in the tittle. I'm unstable.
*Please do not use any of the lyrics or take them without my permission. They are my hard work, my thoughts my emotions. They are a part of me. Its copyrighted
I've lost all hope in what I can achieve,
There's no place for me in this society.
I'm lost and cold and not important anymore...
Don't try to comfort me
I'm not insane I just want to break free
Don't try to love me for what you percieve me to be...
[chorus]
No where to run,
No where to hide,
No one to bring me back to life
God, I feel empty deep inside
Show me the way, Show me the light
They pull you down, they tear you to pieces
They laugh at you, call you a failure
I wont let them win, I wont let them in...
I've tried so hard and got so far
I've tried my best to be your heart's desire
But now I think I can't take it anymore
[chorus]
[bridge]
The cross, his blood, my pain he shared
I beg you to tell me who I really am
The crown of thorns the burden he bore
I need you back in my life
[chorus]x2
I think I'm falling, falling forever...
-//For God did not give us a spirit of fear but a spirit of love and of a sound mind.
*ceLina
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