ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
;noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Thursday, February 17
I Hate You
Weather: Surprisingly humid
Listening to: Missing/ Evanescence
Dear Shadow,
I've been really bad lately. Sigh... though everyday is a normal day without a doubt. Life isn't like before. I really wish kathryn was here. All along she was my pillar of strength and her house was my hiding place. Now that she's gone. I'm left alone. Though I do have new friends. The closer ones are guys. Although Cherie has been my close buddy, but there's no way in confiding in her. She has too much problems already. Pamela? I haven't seen her in ages, I wonder if she's okay. Everything is just not right la. I wish I wasn't reminded about him one week back. For your information, everything is over. I just feel like crying la. But I promised myself never to cry for him, because its really not worth it. He may think I'm in the wrong and stuff, but I really can't stand people who don't mean what they say, or rather, say utter rubbish. Stop playing my feelings! Just when I finally opened up to him, he had to stab me back. I am so stupid. Why the heck do this kinda things have to happen?!?! I should have remained to my tag line " Guys are nothing but trouble." To hell with them. Shut up okay! I just need to pour out all my unhappiness, its just so hard... just let me complain.
Some how I feel that even if I went away no body will care. Because no one here on earth really loves me. Other than my mother. You know I don't give a damn actually but why make it more difficult for me to like you so badly only to make me hate you. I hate you. I really hate you. Now you don't even bother to talk to me, or msn me.. When were you ever serious. It was just for fun! For the moment! Yeah... moment of folly that is. To my friends, I'm just some extra. I really feel like saying bye, just live your life like you don't know me?
Well, i guess I don't feel so angry now shadow. After spilling my woes, I feel better. And one more thing, you won't ever truly care about me. You won't save me even if I were on the brink of death. Trust me
-// Love is nothing but a stupid lie
*ceLina
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