ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
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Strange In The Making
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Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
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Save me from my insecurity.
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Sunday, March 6
My views and opinions about Love
Weather: Pretty warm but still bearable. =)
Listening to: Incredible/ Darius
Dear Shadow,
This entry is not going to be an in-depth and philsophical explanatory. I'll just write whatever that comes to my mind. These kinda thoughts always happen after I read romantic cum hillarious novels like Meg Cabot's The Boy Next Door as well as The Waitress written by Melissa Nathan which is comparable to the former's works. I've always wondered if a girl like me would have a certain desire for some distinct qualities and patterns in men. I realised that it's not as simple as having the factors. There must be an undeniable form of attraction * not so much importance on the physical appearance or sexually, but the kind where you feel weird without it and makes you yearn for it.* as well as communication. I don't know. All along, I've been so silly to think that as long as I can find guys with these kind of qualities, they must be right for me! Maybe because I am more anti social towards guys and I definately can't hold a conversation with like 90% of the guys I know. I can't seem to socialise with them. Okay thats just another issue, lets put that aside.
I guess as long as you really like the person or love the person, taking the risk, trust and loyalty doesn't really come into the picture anymore. If you were to be in love, you'd do anything for the person even if it's unreasonable. You couldn't care more if you know that the person that you love, loves you, even if he maybe having an affair right under your nose. Women, or women like me rather not know you have another outside and would rather pretend everything is okay. Thats SO like escapism, however you spell it. However with great bliss comes great price, thats an undisputed fact. Now come to think of it, have I really loved someone, so much so that I am willing to take the risk? My mum perhaps? Hmm.. nope! no guys made me ever feel I-will-take-the-risk-to-be-with-you-yet. Thats a good sign! At least I know my depression might linger for awhile more before its gone. I'm sorry! Just by listening to the song, I can't wait to find someone that I really love. That sounds SO desperate. Oh man. Sorry not in the right mind as I emphasised in the ealier paragraph. =)
I would suppose that I would look for certain qualities in guys. Here goes the list.
- Kind
- Generous ( Not Splurge but not to stingy either. My dad belongs to the latter. Can't stand it >.<)
- Gentlemanly ( As long the guy is not MCP or pompous, I'm pretty fine. )
- Caring ( Thats a must must! With the amount of insecurity and depressions that i might encounter during a relationship is uncountable, it must be complusory! I pity the guy who dates me. )
- To be able to understand me well. ( Thats also complusory! I'm a very weird girl so thats a must must or not it's over. )
Not too much to expect I suppose? Hey! At least I'm not like the girls who go for the Don't-Talk-To-Me-If- You're-Not-Tall-Dark-Handsome-Rich-Owns 5C's-Guy Okay! A happy relationship does not depend ENTIRELY on physical appearance and money. Let me emphasis the word ENTIRELY again. We should look at it as an additional bonus, yea? However there are 2 types of guys I might be more interested than the others.
Type 1 - The Cold-On-The-Outside-Warm-In-The-Inside-And-Musically-Inclined kind of guy
The kind that shuns away from you. Makes you irritated when you try to care for him. The ones who have been hurt really badly but keeps it all to himself. The guy who composes music, plays the guitar or piano, which ever, anything but the drums. He's really sensitive and caring and does stuff to make you happy. The kind who would protect you when something happens. The slightly Pai kia- not overly done kind of guy. Real life examples: So far Kenneth fits the bill, but he's definately more than that. He's deep, intelligent the kind of guy you would go to for advice. He's just out of my reach and I've given up because we're just too different and besides he's one of the 90% percent of guys I can't communicate with.
Type 2 - The I-Hate-You For-Your-Guts-But-Somehow-Enjoy-Arguing-With-You kind of guy.
Oh man! That sooo reminds me of a couple whom I know of. Sheesh I how could I think of putting that. But thats a fact la. I hate egoistic guys and I hate their guts and confidence but at the same time I love to have a witty conversation with them and enjoy and the kind that i would miss having arguments with. However, I can't be possibly be at his heels all day long doing nothing but quaffing right? So I suppose He still has to be the kind who admits he's wrong and apologises and makes everything that used to be wrong into right. =) Real life examples : Stanley, I like to argue with him but I don't like him, thats just a very mild example. Elton, I seriously hate his guts and wont EVER like such an ass like him, I'm sorry I just cant stand the way he does things, it pisses me off. There you go, one guy I really dislike. So far there actually is none that I've met in this category i suppose.
Oh well, at least this is a know more about celina entry yea? Something for a change. =)
-// Love is not something which you can plan not to happen
*ceLina
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