ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
;noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Tuesday, May 24
Breathe No More.
Weather: Rainy and sunny, the usual. my life? not the usual you get
Listening to: We belong together/Mariah Carey
Dear shadow,
Everything has been going wrong. Seriously wrong. The series of unfortunate events that happened today.
-Failed maths test
-Classmates failed to complete the present for the International Friendship Day Project
-Saw A Pair of Medium sized moths ( bout the width of the CD cover)
-Forgot to bring my wallet.
-Didnt borrow enough from friends, ending up borrowing from commuter.
I shall elaborate the whole incident today. Okay failing the maths test is pretty straightforward yea? I'm the Civics rep of the class, its my duty to ensure that the International Friendship Day project would be completed on time. The aim of the project is to allow us to know more about the country. Singapore that is.-_- I finished the card together with some of my classmates. So? All out efforts have gone to waste. I don't blame them for forgetting to bring their items. I didnt want to remind them because I trust that they were old enough to remember important stuff like that. However, they didnt even bother to do something about it, they just took like 15 mins try to think of something and gave up, leaving me to fend for my own skin. Only Ding Zhi and Eunice from the people incharge of the gift came over to help me with the touch ups. Fantastic isnt it? So much for Self Discipline Self Motivation (SDSM)
Needless to say.I hate moths! I don't care if their gentle. The thought of them makes me jump! I hate it, Oh lord, make me not fear those little thingys! Just make them go away!!! =( I realised that I didnt bring along my wallet so I had to practically borrow from my friends.. which i hate to. I didnt have enough to go home and Thank God... there was still some left over. I needed only 40cents but the person gave me 50cents. Okay so wads the deal... an excess of ten cents.. well at least its better than nothing! Oh well, everytime i talk to some one from PJC they always talk about my principal. I dun like him either but I wish that they would be more considerate. I come from that school and you make my school sound so horrible. You're making me feel horrible too. Yeah you might say I'm sensitive but its not really nice. I dont really like to tell people off, but when I do, I do it in a nice way. But sometimes they just have to keep doing it. =( I'm sick and tired of it already. I'm feeling like shit too. I guess I know why I keep complaining about friends. In MI you hardly hear me complaining about it because I have a strong group of nice friends who are always there. In JJ although people are nice, but they dont really wanna get close to you. Kind of superficial. I don't feel the warmth I've experience in FMSS or in MI. Oh well at least I've got Qwen. She does understand my position.
List of events coming up soon... real soon.
-VI camp.
I'm the day one Chairman and the Programme I/C. I've got alot of stuff to do, once they re start the planning. Actually I've started planning but on the eve of my meeting, they cancelled it! Gosh! Stress! I'm bound to get tekan-ed by the sirs and mdm. Welcome to the world of red cross "politics".
-Upcoming gig og June 19
I still have yet to seriously practice the song like 10 times in a row or something cos it's kinda straining. Tickets are avail! Please order of Joel Ng or me =) last orders by June 10. =)
-Rehearsal for my probation periods in July and Auguest
Sigh... I havent really practiced the song either. Too caught up in my work load. I'm so stressed up I just dont feel like doing anything now. I'm just too tired. Too worn out. I need to rest in your arms, daddy. take me away.
Quizilla is a place to express creativity but some people misuse it, however I managed to salvage something from it. It's by HaveSomeProzac. Talking about Irony huh. The poem I'm gonna post is gonna be just as depressing as the nick itself. It goes like this...
Dear Mommy;
Today was such a good dayso much better than others
The sun was shining sohigh and bright
And I smiled and laughed
I didn't cry once,making it through the day
I'm exactly who you'd want me to be now
My own unique person
You'd be so proudif you saw me nowbecause
I'm so strongJust like you taught me
It's days like this where I don't realize anything is wrong
Where the dark clouds have been pushed aside
But Mommy, I can still see the clouds hanging there in the corners of my eyes
Why are they there, Mommy?
Why do I feel this way?
All I know is that you've been away for a while
Last time I saw you,
there you were sleeping in that red, wooden box
Looking so cold and so tired
People were crying,all dressed in black
Why were they crying, Mommy?
I remember someone begging you to wake up
She clutched your hand and cried and cried until her eyes turned fire red
But Mommy, you wouldn't listen to her you kept on sleeping
I don't understand, Mommy,
Why were they crying?
All I know is thatI miss you, Mommy
It was written in one of the news paper articles that the songs in your playlist, determines your personality. Well gotta couple of songs allocated to some of the people I've tried to express my feelings whether it may be love, anger or hatred. I've always wanted to do this.
To Kenneth:
- Taking over me, Going under / Evanescence. Til I get over you/ Michelle Branch. Stuck/Stacie Orrico
To WenHui:
- Behind these hazel eyes, Hear me, I hate myself for losing you/Kelly Clarkson. Hao Ji Mo/ Fan wei qi & Guang Liang. Kai Shi Dong Le, Wo Bu Nan Guo/ Sun Yan Zi. We belong together/Mariah Carey. Missing/Evanescence
To my beloved Kathryn
- Girl/Destiny's child. Senorita/Justin Timberlake. Say Goodbye/ S Club 7. Someone like me/Atomic Kitten
To Guy A
- Where is your heart/Kelly clarkson.
To Sherlyn
-Because of you/Kelly clarkson.
To My parents
- Breathe no more/Evanescence
-// Ngoh Sum Hou Tong. Ba Ba Cheng Lei Gao Ngoh
*ceLina
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