ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
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Thursday, May 5
The Season Of Yellow Flowers
Weather: Dark, damp,wet
Listening to: 止戰之殤/ Jay Chou
Dear Shadow,
Today, life was pretty okay. I survived the 2 hour chinese period and Dr Gan's chemistry lessons. Like what Lifen said, we ought to learn how to appreciate her chemistry "jokes" hahaha. GP excited me because I love to do stuff on mass media and how advertising works on others. However... I was the only one from my class doing mass media. So I basically sat alone... for the first 15 mins or so. It was alright for me to be alone la. I suppose I'm getting used to it? Well, I did have a nice encounter though =). Made friends with a guy... can u believe it? I'm talking to a guy I dont know? Thats like so amazing. Sorry but I'm not the kinda girl who would talk to guys unless I force myself to or they talk to me first. We got along quite "okay-ly" talked about CCA's, classes and Miss Yan! Ah Ha! Miss yan... Can't stand her "Check your stools" and her "nice!" Its just sooo irritating. She's nice but weird! Seriously weird I tell you. Aneeway I made friends with two chinese scholars who were more sociable than those in my class? They were really cute? I suppose twins too =) One girl and a guy. Nice people. Surprisingly their english is not bad =) in fact better than certain singaporeans. Weather after GP was like totally terrible! Lightning and thunder was all I ever saw or heard on my way back, not excluding the cold drops on rain down my face. I'm the kind of paranoid person whose afraid of lightning and crossing roads. I've nearly got banged down by cars a few times. Thank goodness my friends were there to pull me back. Somehow, I became so vulnerable that Lifen and Tsar had to walk me cross the road. I feel so embaressed! But I'm really grateful to have friends like them. Thanks so much~! To Lifen *muacks* =) loveya~!
Kinda felt lonely today when I got back home. I don't know recently it seems like everyone is having someone special to lean on, to rely on and to trust in. Other than my friends whom I'm not really close to, I know none. Maybe I feel unimportant, maybe i feel unwanted. All know is that I really need a hug from someone with warm arms that I can feel safe in, somewhere where I can be taken care of and feel love, somewhere without stress. Its not in my mother's arms because I don't feel safe in her's in fact i feel stressed. Its not in my close friends because they seem distant now. Its just... amongst the crowd. Someone will be there waiting for me. I suppose. It seems all too fairytale-ish.Its just not real... only an illusion. I can never find that in the mortal world.
Something happy to talk about. I've gotten into the first round of audtions for my music school's recruitment of musicians for the upcoming cafe =) yeah~! for me =) and myself.... oh shut up celina... no special someone to be happy with you, just shut the thought away. Yeah anyway WOooo Hoo~! =)
-// To love is one big mistake
*ceLina
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