ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
;noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Tuesday, June 21
If there's one thing I'll die from, it will be diabetes.
Weather: really cloudy
Listening to: The other side of the world/ KT Tunstall
Dear Shadow,
I bought a book recently, about the controversies of women and their deepest darkest desires. The story would have worked for me if I hadnt found out who the author was. I would have rather known it were true. But in some ways, marriage isn't all that happily ever after. It's about how you make it work.
Somehow, reading "Bride stripped bare" By NJ Gemall, it kind of opened up my thoughts on how good is it to be free without any strings attached. In fact, I think I'm starting to enjoy the freedom of being alone.
It seems so ironic, in just one day, from "wanting to be attached" I turned "alone is good". I guess I've put my mind to it that maybe it wasnt such a good idea. I guess I didnt want to commit the same mistakes like what happened to guy A. Even though i liked him at that point in time, I never really felt like I knew him at all, there wasn't any connection between the both of us. 2 years would have been more than enough time to know someone well but for me, it didnt work. There was so much left unsaid.
I have this feeling that it will probably happen again, I'm not taking any chances though. I guess "alone is good" No one can tell you what to do, no need to worry about breaking their hearts, about breaking my heart. Guess I'm gonna bring in another guy. Guy X. Though things arent clear where's their heading now, somehow deep in my heart i know Guy X doesnt like me. I feel indifferent perhaps I just dipped my toe in and pulled it back at the correct time i suppose. I wonder what would happen if I fell in. Point of no return. Oh man I feel so lethargic. Must be the nose.
Something for you to think about. Is marriage just an exterior of happiness?
-//Someone else's love was never meant for me
*ceLina
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