ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
;noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Thursday, July 28
I've never really forgotten you.
Weather: Fine, not too cloudy but not too sunny either =)
Listening to: Yong Gan/ Zhang hui mei- A*mei
Dear Shadow,
Once there was a girl. She wanted everything. Recognition, popularity, love. In search of fufilment, she chased after her dreams. Not knowing dreams are just beautiful illusions, she went ahead, leaving behind her friends, her family and her very soul. Somewhere along the road, she lost her dream. Not knowing the road home, she trudged cluelessly. She wished she took notice of those around her and cherished the times spent with them.
The moon hung low, in the still pathway she walked alone, reminising how she had someone who once meant the world to her. She smiled at those memories til it came to the end. She'd hope he would still wait for her. Her parents disapproved of their relationship, however she wished he understood. She continued to hold on hopes of them being together one day. Just then, she slipped and on her knees she fell. A card was what she stepped on. On it wrote her lover's name together with someone else. It was a wedding invitation. In disbeilef, she chose to stay in the illision that it was not him.
Finally she found her way home. However, her friends had left, few remained. It was only then she knew that he had forgotten. He had given up. She had been replaced. She broke down as the rain fell upon her. Lost and confused she lived in a daze. She wanted to cry but he was not worth all the pain since she'd been forgotten. She continues to live her life in pain trying to rebuild her fortress.
I've never forgotten you. Just by looking at your pictures, my heart breaks. I want to cry but I know I'm stupid to do so. You never did know why I had to make such a painful decsion. You probably think I deserved it. However I was just respecting my parents wishes. Till this day I hate myself for not letting go...
How freely you gave up, how easily you found another, how betrayed I felt.
-// You never truly loved me
*ceLina
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