ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Sunday, July 24
*You can now leave messages on my tagboard
I Havent Ever Really Found A Place Called Home.
Weather: Pretty much the same, its either rainy or sunny
Listening to: You're Beautiful/James Blunt
Safe In A Crazy World/Corrinne May
Dear Shadow,
I'm beginning to accept the fact that there's nothing that really belongs to me in this world. Feeling detached. Weird, Outcasted and Different? I guess its normal. Nothing to really much. Another thing that i've realised is some things are too late to be cherished... You may argue on that but I guess everyone has a differing point of view towards certain aspects of life.
Somethings were too obvious to hide...
When my friend told me certain things that I should keep in mind about guy X, I thought... "Nah... I don't think he's that kinda person" well, guess I just changed my mind. His words kept sounding in my head when I saw it for my own eyes. Well as usual, there'd be only two reactions from me. It was either to tease or to refrain, to be aloof, cold. Maybe I had enough of it, which is why I decided to withdraw. Maybe I didn't want to care cause I cared too much. Maybe I was being stupid again. Well, I should be glad! There would be less possibilites of getting hurt terribly. I wish someone would just tell me I understand.
I'm scared. But once the world knows it, they'll use it against me. It's a dog eat dog world, survival of the fittest. Though we are humans we all possess the herd instinct as well as the predator instinct. I wish that love at our age wasnt so superficial. To be frank, no one really loves me deeply for who I am except maybe my best friend. I don't think anyone is able to accept me the way i am now, not even my mum. She knows nothing much about the other side of me. I wish someone would know everything that i'm thinking about now and turns it into actions. Right now it isnt happening and it never would because its beyond human hands.
In a dark room, I see nothing. Alone in the dark, I sat at the corner of the room, where two walls converge. I raise my legs close to my chest and wrap my arms around. Cold and slient, I rest my heavy laden head upon my knees.
Sunny weather, the warm earth against my feet. I prance through the bed of yellow dainty flowers. I rest upon the earth and enjoy the warm glow on my cheek.
I opened my eyes to admire the golden sun, only to find darkness around me. It was all a dream... All a dream...
-//Change is the only constant
*ceLina
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