ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
;noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
thoughtprocesses.
Tuesday, October 11
Promo Woes
Weather: Too Dark.. cant see
Listening to: I'm not okay/ My Chemical Romance ( really i'm not okay.)
Dear Shadow,
You know what sucks. When you studied and expected better grades when they turn out the way you least expected. You know what... I scored 49 for Econs. I had 21/30 for MCQ, 14/20 for DRQ and 14/50 for my freaking Essay. You see!! I didnt have enough time to pen my essays! Its so freaking irritating!! * pulls hair out * Glad I passed maths but disappointed that i didnt score 60+. Likewise for my chemistry. Disappointment perhaps.
Life in Sinagpore its not the best place to be when your best friend and close friend's arent around to spend it with you. It's almost as if you were living in a foreign countries. After countries are begining to look the same, they imitate each other trying to Outwit and Outlast. Something like Survivor, country style. Globalise and adopt political structures, like how Survivor contestants have their groupings and then reform and combine it into one group. It is then there is no such thing is real relationships. It's the survival of the fittest. The law of the animal kingdom applies in the human world as well. Funny no matter how we advance, we can never escape from our roots.
It's boring in JJ. Never had friends who asked me how my day is or even bothered if I went missing except maybe one or two I guess. It's rather sad but this shows pathetic I am and how the school is. People are guarded, grouped to protect themselves from the world outside, the unknowned, their insecurity leads to scrutinity of others. Sad but true. Never in my life have I felt such disdain for a place. I want finish off and be done with it. No strings attached. No memories for me to keep. Only scars. Sounds dramatised? Well it is alittle but dont we all go through similar periods such as the above in life at some point in time?
I've always played nice friendly "sweet", fake in the eyes of some, insincere to others. I tried my hardest to befriend only to find myself rejected and left in the corner. If this is what the world gives you, give the world a taste of what it is to be alone. If they dont see it or choose to ignore it, their loss, their insensitivity. If they see it, blessed are they for they feel the pain but woe is to them if they choose to watch.
Friends are those who care, when the day darkens their hearts still shine like beacons in the sea of turmoil. I thank God I see those, for they are clear to me =)
-// There's nothing like Hot Chocolate, A cheese sandwich and a book on a rainy day
*ceLina
P.S: Kathryn.. I need to bitch real bad right now haha think I'll mail you
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