ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
;noteworthy // nartz (please do not remove this.)
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
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Sunday, October 1
The Truth about fat
The fact is I’ve grown fat. There is no point in hiding it. My mother complains I’m fat, my pompous classmate has already raised the alarm. So whose next? Well my grandama was the latest. Ironically, I’ve never felt so comfortable in my own skin. It’s the people around me who are making me feel conscious about myself. Being able to eat till you’re filled up is as if you’re a free man being released from a cage. I’ve tried dieting, successively lost the feeling of hunger and eventually lost 10 kg. Honestly after I lost it all. It was like a new me, a new me that got to wear the clothes I’ve always loved, to look pretty and to be looked at. However, it’s as if I lost myself in the fight to lose my excess fat. I no longer think about stuff that meant much to me but just on the surface, basically just looking good. Fuelled by comments from my instructor to dress up., I’ve completely lost what I was all about. Short skirts, being trendy. No longer the girl who pondered about stuff . To be blunt, it was almost like a bimbo transformation. It seem ironic that even though I’m comfortable with myself people don’t. The question is do I give in or do I make them understand.
Controversially, I realized that it is not worth losing weight for someone who does not love you because whether fat or skinny, you are the most beautiful in his eyes
To my dearest boyfriend, Thank you for loving me so much no matter how fat I’ve become. Thank you for making me believe that I’m always beautiful in your eyes. To my friends especially to shireen and my best friend Kathryn, Thank you for being there for me and cherishing me as a friend.
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