ceLina // 16+ ; Fairfield Primary/Fairfied Secondary/Jurong Junior College ; Choir/Red Cross ; Christian ; Black/Red/Purple ; Love to Sing.
Music/Bands // Evanescence ; My Chemical Romance ; NickelBack ; Megan Maccauley ; Kelly Clarkson .
ThePeopleThatTurnMyRosesRed // Amanda ; * Batman ; Georgina ; Julia ; * Kathryn ; Kenneth ; LyDia ; Sherlyn ; tiMo ; Yuliang ; Jie ying ; Joel;Cherie
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Strange In The Making
[ :: Freaky 15 ]
[ :: Fiesty 14 ]
Present Bloodstains and Dried Up Teardrops
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Chapter 16
Chapter 17
Chapter 18
Chapter 19
Chapter 20
Chapter 21
Chapter 22
:: home ::
Save me from my insecurity.
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Tuesday, January 23
Stupid people
Weather: Windy and Chilly
Listening to : It's Not Over/ Chris Daughtry
Things are getting from bad to worse. Between me and my parents that is. I cant take it anymore though I know that there are more people out there taking more sh*t from their parents than I am.
I remember how I used to keep it in and bear with it. But ever since I gave up on having talks with them in futile attempts to understand each other better, things have gone from good to not so good to bad. To be honest my parents think they can boss me around, especially my mum.
My mum is someone who loves to make herself look good. You could say I'm one who holds grudges but a few years ago, I happened to be sick from working part time. She accompanied me to the doctor and told her that I made her stay up to wait for me til 12midnight when it totally wasnt true of course. In fact I told her to sleep first countless times. Do you know how hurting it is when your mum goes around saying bad things about you to strangers in your face and those werent even true. Lately she suggested going out for tea with my boyfriend and me, and of course my dad. She was the one who suggested going to Holland yet when there was difficulty locating an empty parking lot, she complained. I suggested going to Chip Bee Gardens to park. You wont believe what she said. Its so far, then we'lll have to walk. Then she complained a second time. I repeated the option of going to Chip Bee Gardens. After which she claimed that she had no problem with the walking, it was I that had the problem. I was furious. Honestly if you had a problem walking in the first place would you even suggest somewhere further away? This is such a freaking dumb situation. And the worse thing was my dad defended her. I'm like are you out of your mind?!
Already I spend very little time with my parents. When I ask them out to lunch. My mum would say " can we go for a quick lunch because I want to do my work? " It is a known fact in my family that my mum is a WORKERHOLIC. Sometimes I dont understand why they wont even want to see or spend more time with me when its a weekend and I request for it. Its a WEEKEND!!
Next is my dad. Honestly I hate his bloody logic. Last saturday he was supposed to be at home. I need to go down to jurong to get books and some groceries as well so I asked him if he was available to drop me and send me home via car. He didnt want to because it was gonna waste his precious petrol. I didnt say anything as he offered to take an MRT down with me. In the end because he thought it wasnt necessary so he didnt go with me. In the end I had to lug 6 heavy books the size of dictionaries, no kidding, back home on one shoulder only to find him out. For more than 30 mins I was locked out of the house, I called my dad told him that I was outside the house. 20 mins later I called again knowing that he was with my mum and should be homw by then, to find out that my mum wanted to go for coffee not knowing I was BLOODY LOCKED OUT. I cant believe my dad didnt tell her. I was SO UPSET I cried. To you guys it may not seem like a serious thing. But to me it felt like I didnt matter at all. All the things they said about loving me was so superficial.
On Saturday, he was supposed to pick me up from choir I told him it was easier to pick me up opposite because my friends would be with me, he insisted that I wait for him where I was. I tried to persuade him but to no avail. I ended up waiting at my destination alone, the place was deserted and very quiet. Not that I was scared but anything could happen like robbery or something, no one will ever see it. When he came I explained the situation. He chided me for not telling him the situation earlier. I explained that I didnt want my friends to know because they were going to eat dinner and it was already 10 and I didnt want them to be hungry. He told me " Next time tell me that your opposite already. " I'm like are u trying to tell me to lie? He scolded me when I tried to tell him to wait for me the otherside now he's telling me to lie? I dont understand.
One last thing, Today it really pissed me off. My dad says that my aunt needs her book that did not ever exist in my house. Cause honestly the book she requested for was never in my junior college syllabus except for the simple ones which dont even require people spending time to write like 20 pages . I told him I dont even recall borrowing anything from her. He was upset then he complained saying "I know its not in your syllabus, but if you dont need it next time return it immediately, even if you said that its not in your syllabus, you'll never know. " Was he trying to insult me honestly? I know my syllabus better than he does cause he never bothered to even check what the hell I was studying or even concerned about my studies.
This may not seem much but it means alot to me. So if you've got something bad to say keep it to yourself cause I dont want to hear it. Dont even try defending my parents cause its only going to make me more upset.
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